I was just placing some orders on Amazon.com. Nothing kinky or sexual, just some DVDs I’m buying for a family member.
When I noticed that Amazon has a new “Pay Phrase” function. I’m not entirely clear on how it works, but it seems to allow you to have things billed and sent to you without having to go through a bunch of steps.
But that’s not the interesting part. The interesting part? The default phrase they created for me:
“[My name]’s controlling assertion.”
I almost fell over laughing.
Maybe it doesn’t have to do with all the BDSM erotica I’ve purchased on Amazon over the last year – but I really kind of hope it does.
(In other news, my libido seems to have picked back up again, and I’ve found a deliciously evil and sadistic online play partner [yes, I know I said never again, but I’ve got needs] and I think I’m going to start dating again after the holidays. So I’m expecting to have more things to blog about again soon.)
Even the lurkers! I miss writing this blog, and having the conversations around the writing, and yet, I haven’t been feeling very motivated to post lately.
Partly it’s just life getting in the way – work and other things have been insane (in a very, very good way). I barely have time for things like cooking food and hanging out with dear friends. So finding the time and mental energy to write a thoughtful post about sexual politics has been … difficult.
But also … I think a part of me finds it difficult to always be writing about sex and relationships I’m not having. It doesn’t always feel that way. When I was really rolling with this blog, it felt like a great way to connect with this part of myself and others like me. Even if I couldn’t find a partner to express it with, at least I have this forum and the wonderful people who have been participating in it (yes, that means you).
But lately I suppose I’ve been feeling a bit frustrated about the whole thing. I haven’t even logged on to OKCupid or Fetlife for weeks. And I know that doesn’t get me any closer to finding someone, but I think I just needed a break. It’s hard to keep pouring your energy to something that’s not giving you energy back.
Anyway, for the time being, I do really need to keep my eyes on the prize with the work stuff. And that gives me energy back in spades, so it works out. But that won’t be forever, and I know I’ll be back. In the meantime, I’ll lurk on your blogs and wait for my mojo to come back.
Nope, not one of those cases of “whoops, forgot about my blog.” I’ve been busy with family stuff and work, all decidedly un-sexy, but I plan to resume my regularly-scheduled programming of outrage, snark and goofiness soon.
In the meantime, I recently bought a Kindle and have discovered the wide world of BDSM erotica in e-book form. That’s what kindles are for, right? Being able to read whatever the hell you want without fear of your roommates discovering your massive stash of embarrassingly-titled written porn? Anyway, I’m planning on writing about this soon – in the meantime, let me know if you have any erotica writers you love. So far, I’ve been enjoying Annabel Joseph and Kitty Thomas.